A passing thought:
/Be careful that you do not confirm your 'story' too hard in this reality. If you believe yourself to have problems then you will have problems, emotional or otherwise. If you create excuses for these problems or situations based on past experience, upbringing and life events then you reinforce the subconscious belief of your story. It will manifest in the physical as events, situations and comforts to hold you in that firm belief.
Break the habit and everything will change but be prepared to leave behind and let go of what no longer serves you in the ever present moment...